He is not already my companion, my partner in crime. He never share his plan, he has throw away our plans. He has never ask me abiut my plan.

When he is finished and made his plans and decision, thats the time he would ask me what will be my plan, as if he wants us to be on separate ways. As if he wanted it early as possible for I am just hindrance.

This time I fully understand that he no longer thinks of me nor care nor loves me.