I have to go home. I have to feel my presence in my own family for I feel invisible here in my independent life.

Why do I ahve to be jealous when I don’t have the right anymore? WHy all those approaches he have for others are very nice, a gentleman, very heroic, full of energy, vigorous, talkative shares, having planful futures. While his aproaches towards me is that he makes me feel dumb, no use, overreacting, no plans, boring and all bad aspects.

I think he no longers want my company anymore while me I am tired of providing. He wants to lighten up the room, and why is it if there is a chance for the 2 of us he separates and find ways to go away, worst thing is he wants to sleep and sleep and sleep when he is with me. I mean he always feel tired and sleepy. While on others he is very active and energetic.

What will I supposed to do, it looks like I am invisible for when I am with him I feel like I am still alone.