I cannot be as jolly as it can be like before. For everytime I make moves or do say something, join in some discussion and have some jokes THEN, (yes a big THEN!) if I make something which he doesn’t like or for him it was wrong he then have a frown in his face..his eyebrows meets its point. Which I don’t know what to react. I mean people around does not see anything wrong why does he have to frown at me? What’s wrong on that…what’s wrong on those???

It seems that I miss myself in the past..always laughing..having jokes…going and walking talkatively…and now in order for me not to receive frown face, I would just be still and keep quite so that he may be at peace.

He thinks I’m quiet, reserve and not people person. It was a shocking for him to realized I had laugh a loud, talk to much on the phone with my best pal. See? he forgets who I am and how I make my other of side of friends happy and amaze. My friends would usually say I always laugh around and talk simultaneously. I remember one of my close guy friend who had describe me as jolly person, this guy really knows me..but to him he would always say I am quiet and don’t talk to much..I get the answer why it was really opposite. It’s because he never gives me a chance to allow myself to fit in the group and take my jokes as jokes. He never let’s me be but instead he wants me to hold my moves or tongue..it looks like he wants me to deliver my speech to him first and had his approval.

The point here is…I laugh and enjoy myself in a conversation but there he is frowning secretly if he thinks I am over the fence which actually I’m just within the backyard. And I hate seeing that everyone enjoys while he frowns secretly at me because he doesn’t like my words or story lines…why what’s wrong with me? why can he not appreciate?

Everyone enjoys while I can’t enjoy myself. For if I will enjoy by the end of the day in just one conclusion he would say, why am I so laughing loud, saying that why which make like a hore or flirty.

That’s why secretly I wanted to go out with other set of people to enjoy myself and laugh as if it has no end and we could have smart conversation at it’s most compatibility.

With this word ‘compatibility’ I may want to consider we don’t have that anymore.