Now that its over. I am certified single again. But even if we’re together I still feel I am single.

I never ignore the love he has bestowed upon me, but I could feel he has less love in our relationship even though everday I am stating to my mind ‘Yes he loves me dearly’.

Even though sometimes when he sees me his world is broken again.  When with his or our friends he had a huge smile but when a snap or glances at me, his eyebrows meets its center and all my actions and talks are all wrong. That’s why when in a group I would rather keep silent and no more movements so that he will not be dismay.

I just keep silent and be there for him. Waiting for him, waiting for his attention, his time like last year. Waiting for his care, waiting for his hug and kiss.

I have less share about this to my friends who knows our relationship. Its because he always think that when I tell or share problems with others about us its already backstabbing him. Its not backstabbing intentions, all I need is somebody to lean on and to let out the hurts I have.

I do everything to please him. I have serve, care, love and give all for him. But at the end for one thing I cannot do what he pleases me to do I had receive bad compliments. It is like all efforts and care was gone just for 1 simple thing.

I had endow in this relationship I even have no time for my ownself. Even my body is tired, my sickness on left side really aches underneath the skin, my heart aches going up and down, I still go on for my mind and heart tells me too and for him.

Many bad compliments and lesser good ones. A shadow. A tail. An ill-fated.

Important thing is I still care and love him. and we are friends.