At first I keep silence and never mention how I feel. I never intend to let him know how I feel because I was afraid. This was no ordinary and so so relationship anymore. I just keep quite for I have no right to speak out how I feel, I still have no right to be jealous or to care a lot. How good I am keeping the feeling inside me.

Soon we have exchange ideals and feelings then having relationship with no commitment because I still have to question myself. And soon we both had agreement and say to him ok let’s have a commitment now. Eversince then on I have minimize my being so caring to some of his friends, I stop my sweet-action to others which I know he is jealous a lot of. Instead I focus a lot to him. I adjusted myself and learn how to care and love him. Everyday I use to know what are his likes and dislikes. Likewise knowing him better and better.

For him to know I have no clamors with it comes to time, money, and effort. During rough times it was never expected. I guess its natural for lovers to have some downfalls. I want him to be there always beside me and I will never get bored if we are together. I will do things to make him happy with me. I don’t want to hurt him or feel that he is left alone. I want him to realize how I really love him. All I want is to have happy moments each day in our lives. I have experience a perfect family and I will not deprived him from having that one together with me. I really and use to say to him to be obedient and respect to some of his close family and likewsie not to be so rascal or naughty, which I can see he has improve and follows my advice. Its a great accomplishment noticing him doing and following things for me. To him I will never get tard of caring and loving because I will do this forever.